Just a Small comment

It has been a long time, so just a quick update I suppose

 I am a skeleton of who I used to be and still struggling to find who I am.

 Two weeks before Christmas I asked for a divorce. That is what it took to make him wake up, sadly, I am still deciding and struggling with the fact that after I gave up, he decided to fight. Emotionally and physically it is all destroying me and I am clinically underweight and everyday seems to present a new series of challenges for me with my son being the light at the end of my tunnel.

 For now, everything is being taken day to day.

 I have so much to say and write, and yet never seem to have the time to.

 

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