See the Good in Everything

Having Caden is amazing, awesome, the best thing I could have ever expected.  It is also the biggest strain I think my marriage has had to endure.. Between the mother in law arguments and not getting sleep- our little bundle has added an extra weight to our relationship. I stayed home with him for twelve weeks, and all seventeen days he was in the hospital, I made it my goal to be there as much as I could- and dad just didn't get it. It's just one of those things.. he is my baby- I grew him and carried him for 37 weeks- the last thing I wanted was to part with him for even an hour. Dad would get flustered with me for wanting to be there when he wasn't "sick" and was surrounded by nurses and doctors. He didn't know how I couldn't sleep or why at eight am I could only imagine driving back there or that I wanted to stay the night with him. Since he has been home a new crop of issues has surfaced. I spend the day with him. I deal with the diapers, the...

So, quite a few people I know have turned up preggers recently... it was bound to happen, and the old saying that at a certain point in your life everyone you know marries and then has kids- it's true! In honor of that, here are a few things that I can remember form pregnancy that maybe I wish I would have known before now... - Seabands- they are awesome! For those that have weak stomachs, they work wonders. Not the prettiest things ever, but they get the job done. Also- ask for a nausea script early- 'tis better to have it and not need it than be so sick you can't stand on a Saturday morning... makes for long miserable weekends. - No matter what anyone says- you KNOW your body best! When I had a (HORRIFIC) kidney infection, my husband was pretty against me going in because of the cost of the hospital visit and my history with having un-diagnosable pain. Well, a three day hospital stay later and I was right- yes, stick it hubby!! You will get to a point that you fear e...

Today is my last day before going back to work... to say I am sad is a grave understatement! I can't even think about leaving him tomorrow without tearing up. I am not looking forward to work... I know I will have twenty people in my office commenting about "was it hard to leave this morning?"," aren't you glad you're back?"- I just don't have the energy or the ability to withhold sarcastic comments very long! I know he is in good hands with grandma Gina- but I still am dreading the day, and every one to follow it! On a more positive note, we seem to have finally found a good bedtime rhythm. He gets pretty cranky at night- crying through most of his night feed and then fighting to fall asleep- but lately he has been asleep by eight and will stay asleep until about one or two when he is up and needing changed, then back to bed until 4:30 or 5-ish. I am trying to monitor the amount of time he gets cranky and see if there is a correlation between the ...

So the day after we finally cam home from our last hospital trip- I got mastitis. If you don't know what mastitis is... you're lucky. Some heavy duty antibiotics and alot of time in a hot shower and I have thrown in the towel on nursing. I feel horribly guilty about it, and it is the last thing I wanted to do- but to get supply back it will require meds that have some side effects I am not prepared for, and serious commitment to pumping, which I just don't have the time and energy for. So he is burning through the frozen supply and onto straight formula.  His first speech evaluation was this week, and they determined that he is still not ready for a bottle or anything by mouth. We will start seeing an infant evaluation team and they will watch his development and when he is six months (developmentally)- we will redo the swallow study and see if he can tolerate eating solids and go from there. In all likelihood he will never have a bottle- just a cup and spoon (which makes...